Yes it is me and I am here to update, console, beg forgiveness, and thank all of my most wonderful and dearest friends on this website. First I must ask you all to forgive my last journal, it was erratic and emotional, something I should have spared all of you from. I do thank those who sent me such wonderful messages, letters, texts, and warms hugs. April was a very tough month. Finances were low, my family was split at the seams, and I turned into an emo faster than you can blink. I angry at myself for letting it get that way. As I now look back, I see that it was mostly caused by me. My finances were my fault. I found courage enough to ask my job for more hours and I was granted plenty. I sat down and had a talk with my father about our situation, looking at how it was and how it now, I'd say it's more of a skeleton in the closet. My Dad and I are back to being friends, eating breakfast together and actually talking about things. I am going to keep my horse, I finally sat back and realized that it would destroy me emotionally as well as my horse. I can't believe I even suggested that I would do such a things. My horse is my life and I had forgotten that. Thanks to those close to me they gave me wonderful reminders of how much he really means to me.

Things are getting better now. Life is at peace here. Although it has been a bit rough as far as animals go. My sister's cat seems to have disappeared altogether. With him being as old as he was and in poor health, we've come to the conclusion that he went to a peaceful place and passed on. That being the only thing that has caused a riff this past week.

I've also made changes at home. Most of you knew that I had a LOTR themed bedroom and over the years some of my LOTR posters were taken down to make room for my POTC wall and memorabilia. Now that my POTC phase has spent itself I took down those posters and placed back some of my LOTR ones. I was always wanting to put them back up and I finally got my chance when my sister said she would take my pirate stuff and use for decorating her pirate room.

I now have an Indiana Jones wall to celebrate my love for the series. It's actually a love that started back when I was a child and watched the films. Though LOTR will always be in the top spot, Indiana Jones is a very close second.

I'm headed off to Disneyland at the end of the week. I'll be taking my sister and a close friend of mine and we'll be there for three days. It'll be a nice recharge for the body and soul. Thanks as always goes to my wonderful friends here as well as those who watch, fav the stamps and leave their quirky comments. I always appreciate it!

Hope you all have an awesome week. I should be back next week to update the journal again and let you all know how Disneyland was.